LONGINGS

Thots & What Knots

.... {SIGH}.... BEARMAN... i miss you soooo muchly... i wish you were here.. i miss chatting with you on line like we used to. I miss hearing your voice. So often, I will remember things that you said.. I will smile inside. But I also cry... I miss you Sooo Much. I have never loved anyone like I loved you. You were friend, confidant... father figure... my heart.

i have my Bobbie Bear... he is so good to me.. I do not know why he puts up with me sometimes. He is my Mate.. and I am very grateful that he is in my Life. But.. the amount of pain that he suffers day and nite... and rarely sleeps... I wish he would be free all this pain...

I need to find work... a job that will pay the bills, and make me feel wanted and needed.. is there such a place.

for now.. this is alll....

Friend & Bearman

My Dearest Bearman!

I miss you so very much...l my heart hurts and tears unshed well up in a broken soul...

Bobbie took me to see the PHANTOM OF THE OPERA in Vancouver last week. It was Awesome... One of the songs... the one that Christine sang at the grave of her father, rings true for me. Here is my song fromher song.

"You were once my one companion, you were all that mattered. You were once my Friend and Bearman, Until my world was shattered! Wishing I could see you here with me... Wishing I could have you near.... Sometimes it seems- if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here! Wishing i could hear Your voice again... Knowing that I neever would,,,, Dreaming of You, has taught me to do all that you Dreamed I could."

Oh my Bearman... my dear dear Bearman... Will the pain ever go away. People at work who see me at my job... giving the best care I can... they see me as Bubbly. Bearman... My inner pain is too much.... I miss you... I do not miss the pain of the cancer that tortured you body and soul.

I will Always Love you... Forever and Always...

jody

My Bobbie

What a wonderful Hubby God has blessed me with!!! He is so very good to me... He gets up at 4:39 AM to make me befus when I have to go to work early in the morning. He even makes Fuzzy Bear some befus too.

Bobbie, I love you so Very Much... Thank you for your love. Thank you for caring for me. You are my best Friend --- I just love being with you. I only wish that I could help you feel better.

My Babah, My Love/