Daddy Sings to me his Song

Thank you Robbie-Bob for reminiscining with me... Here is Daddy's song "Blamed it on the Moon" that he probably wrote for Jane...


blamed it on the moon
For falling in love
I blamed it on the moon and you
I blamed it on the stars
Which shine up above
I blamed it on a June night too

My loves they come and go
Always the same
This love I surely know
Will always remain
And so I
Blamed it on the moon
For falling in love
I blamed it on the moon and you

AGGHHHH!!! WAVES OF DEBT

Sigh.... I am not sure how we will make it... Financially it has never been so desperate for us. Sure we have a lot of Assets... but we are in Debt up the "#DD(*GH@!?" Yaah, our Father owns the Whole world, but He is not paying the many creditors,that are hounding us. AGGGHHHHH!!!! I do Believe that He can and Will provide.... SOMEDAY!!! Just not sure about now...

Hey God, you listening! I am crying out to You!!! Life for us, seems to continue to get more and more difficult. My depression and Anxiety are making it hard to cope, and the challenges in our lives right now are intensiving the Depression and Anxiety,. I do not know what the answerr it.....

"SHHHHH! BE STILL, AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.I WILL BE EXALTED AMONG THE HEATHEN.I WILL BE EXALTED IN THE EARTH!"Ps 46:10

AND AGAIN:

"...BUT SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, AND IT'S RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND ALL THESE THINGS WILL BE ADDED UNTO YOU. THEREFORE, TAKE NO THOUGHT OF TOMORROW, FOR TOMORROW SHALL TAKE THOUGHT OF ITSELF..., SUFFICIENT UNTO THE DAY ARE THE TROUBLES THERE OF.." MATTHEW 6:33-34

SO, ok... But HOW, Just HOW do i hold on to it... when the mortgage is due... Rx's need to be picked up... and Utilities and bills need to be paid...!!!

PFFFFHHHHMMMPHH! Still Scared!

Daddy Sings to me

in my mind... in my memories... I love to hear you sig to me,Daddy.... I miss you... Have not thot about you in a long while. But I heard this song in my mind just the other day..."I wanna go back to that little grass shack in Keilikau


ABSOLUTELY,THERE'S A PLACE IN HAWAIITHAT IS VERY DEAR TO MEI AM HOMESICK AS CAN BE WON'T YOU LISTEN TO MY PLEA?I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY LITTLE GRASS SHACK IN KEALAKEKUA HAWAIII WANT TO BE WITH ALL THE KANES AND WAHINES THAT I KNEW LONG AGOI CAN HEAR OLD GUITARS A-PLAYING ON THE BEACH AT HO'ONAUNAUI CAN HEAR THE HAWAIIANS SAYING"KOMO MAI NO KAUA IKA HALE WELAKAHAO"IT WON'T BE LONG 'TIL MY SHIP WILL BE SAILING BACK TO KONAA GRAND OLD PLACE THAT'S ALWAYS FAIR TO SEE.I'M JUST A LITTLE HAWAIIAN AND A HOMESICK ISLAND BOY,I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY FISH AND POI,I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY LITTLE GRASS SHACK IN KEALAKEKUA, HAWAIIWHERE THE HUMUHUMUNUKUNUKUAPUAA GOES SWIMMING BYWHERE THE HUMUHUMUNUKUNUKUAPUAA GOES SWIMMING BY

Thank you Daddy.. for all the Songs... for all the Special Memories

I Love you....

your Little Girl
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Fuzzy Bear n me

ONCE AGAIN ITS YOU

IN THE DEEP RECESSES OF MY SOUL,
MY HEART CRIES OUT TO YOU
FOR
JUST ONE MORE
TOUCH OF YOU.

IN MY DREAMS I PULL YOU CLOSE
HOLDING YOU IN
REALIZING THAT WHEN
(AND IF) I AWAKE
I MUST LET GO...
RELEASE YOU TO THE
HEAVENS

YOU ARE NO MORE
NOT HERE
NOT HEAR
ALONE IN THIS PAIN
NO ONE CAN TOUCH
NO ONE CAN SEE

CHEST HURTS
HEART HEAVY
EYES DOWNCAST

MEMORIES CHANGE
NO FREEDOM BRINGS
FEELINGS ARE A PERSONA
NOW

ghostly apparitions
phantoms of Nevermore
or maybe
never quite was.

DAMMIT! DAMN IT!!!
where are You now??
Why the nothingness
when i reach out to you

You are not HERE
so many times
i do not want
to go on

with out You

you
have
moved on

i am still
here

only the memories
sustain this pain.

I cannot

I WILL NOT

let you go!

(c) jodyB -

May 21, 2007