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Monday, June 04, 2012

HOLD ME!!! i;m scared n alone

Where are you now... once so close i could feel your warmth... you used to tell me that you would put me in your Pockie... and that i could put you in mine as well. My Heart HURTS///




I am tired of pain... but it is an ever present reality. I Miss you SOOOO MUCHLY... I don't know why or how you even put up with me, after all the things i did, and the emotional turmoil i was in...




You are here, only in my heart and mind...




But there are blessed and funny memories that keep you close.






Bearman, I will forever and always, forever and BEYOND... i will always love you

if i should die today (A POEM)

If i should die today

If I should die today
Having Become
Redundant

Would it even matter
In the Vast scheme of Things
in the Bangings of
This Universe

Or in your crowded Word
Your Archaically Overstuffed
Easy chair of a life
Where there is Little Room
For Edgewise Thinking

Perhaps I'm just fey
Or is it Fay
Seduced by the Fire
Dancing on the Flames
Begging for Recognition
Or just to Explain
That I am

Yes I am wordy
Even perhaps Verbose
Yes I am Extreme
The calamity of a Kaleidoscope
The Colourfully enigmatic
Images in the Mirrors
(when in Truth, it's all
A Hoax)

If I should die today
Would you remember me
In 25 yrs, your life is
Not the same
If I should die today
Would it even Matter
Having worn out my
Faustiness
A Lust for Significance
Would that I just
Dissipate into Matter



(c) jodyB
January 28, 2012

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Don't matter to most if my smile turns upside down

Or if my ever-willing paramour is the bed sheets on my bed. Don't matter to most if I scream or yell outloud  "I'm Here! I matter! and i have something to say!" And  i guess it just aint important that i have spread before you, like a much-loved Virgin whose Beloved, albeit bewildered, Bridegroom is anxious to partake his Love's Soul. i have lain splayed before your apathy.  i await you.  and the red-flushed apples of my cheeks grow bitter and tart. if i cant taunt you with my prepubescent need,then how will i know that you will be  there when i "come of age"?

and leadership is for "everyone else" and my desires to .share are for naught.