Often Times, over the decades that have made up my life, i have vested much time in this melancholic dream state i find myself. the ineffable attraction toward "being self=possessed" and ending it all, as well as the dissatisfaction with the lack of acclaim or achievement continue to prevail. The quandary and the all out dichotomy is that i have a very Strong Faith, and Relationship with GOD
i am married, 10 1/2 yrs with 5 grandchildren...2 step kids- I love my Grandchildren.. My family, my friends and church; but there is a certain almost seductive calling toward melancholia, toward suicide, the "TRAGICALLY HIP" life of Sylvia Plath, Virgina Woof,Emily Dickinson, and the like. and so it goes, and so it was and so i be
jodyB
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